new treatment

Mitchell FINALLY went back to see the oncologist this morning.  His new chemotherapy begins this Friday.  They decided on a combination of abraxane and avastin every three weeks.  Avastin he has been on before, so we know the evils of that drug but we'll have to wait and see as far as the abraxane is concerned.  Typically this combination of drugs is used for advanced breast cancer patients.  For this reason, our insurance company will most likely refuse to pay for these infusions.  We are still hoping to receive a compassionate use dosage from the company that makes it.  Let's all keep our fingers crossed...

There was also talk of an on-going clinical trail that is available in the Tucson area for colorectal cancer.  It's good to have a back up back up plan. 

Mitchell is having mixed feelings about starting treatment again.  Okay, that's kind of a lie...He hates the idea of starting again.  It's hard for me because I can imagine how he must feel, but I am glad he's going to be getting treatment again.  When he's off treatment, all I can think about is that the cancer is killing him.

still

Still no word about when treatment will start again. 

It seems I'm the only person around who feels like throwing a temper tantrum about the whole thing.

waiting game

 Mitchell still has not restarted treatment.  The more time that passes, the more anxious I feel.  If the cancer was growing while he was on treatment, I can only imagine what it's doing in there while it's free and clear.  The oncologist has lost all sense of urgency. 

My glass half empty perspective makes me feel like our chances of having a positive outcome are getting more and more narrow.  It scares me.