redirection

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this life

This new life is all about not enough time in the day.  And never being able to be in all the places my kids need me to be in.  And not making dinner but buying fast food like every night.  And not bathing Hayden for 3 days in a row because I just can't fight her aversion to water.  And throwing away the daily paper still in the bag the newspaper dude delivered it in because I don't have time to watch any trashy tv, let alone read the f'ing newspaper.  And leaving my girls to get to school on their own, which I know they are fine with but still it bothers me.  And putting off taking Hayden to the doctor even though the crap pouring out of her nose just gets greener and greener each day, and, oh awesome, this morning it has moved up to her eyes.  And falling into bed by 8:13 because I can't stay up another second.

breathe

I have to keep telling myself that.  When things get crazy, it becomes a silent chant.  It gets me through the various panics that seem to temporarily immobilize the girls.  It moves me through the moments when it suddenly strikes me that this really is life now.  Funny thing is, it works. 

ready or not

Tomorrow marks my unofficial return to the full-time work world--A world from which I have been absent since May of 2006. Tomorrow will also mark the beginning of new roles for the girls...And while my eldest has definitely felt this burden since the Hay's birth and Mitchell's diagnosis, this will be the first time they are being asked to do so much.