scan

Mitchell's PET scan was read yesterday and the good news is....We're in the same place we were in back in May.  Chances are the cancer is still growing but SLOWLY.  So that is a good thing.  This particular appointment was remarkable to me because Mitchell was more straight-forward about the symptoms and pains he's been having.  He has an MRI on his brain scheduled for next Friday in order to rule out metastases there.  More than likely,the headaches that he's been having are probably a result of the abraxane. 

Dr. Brown still feels like Mitchell is holding up very well considering we are on month 19 of almost nonstop chemotherapy.  Unfortunately the doctor believes that he will only be able to tolerate 3 or 4 more administrations of these drugs due to the diminished reflexes and the increased neuropathy. 

It's still funny to me to hear people say that Mitchell looks good, even though it doesn't bug me like it did before.  I think it's interesting that people are comforted by the idea that a person with this level of advanced disease looks good.  To me, it's the opposite.  It scares the shit out of me that something that destructive can hide out in your body like that with minimal outward symptoms.

love-hate

Friday, Mitchell is scheduled to have his 2nd PET scan.  Scans are a double-edged sword.  I want the information, but I'm afraid of it.  I'm not sure if it's better to be an optimist or pessimist.  With pessimism, you can be pleasantly surprised.  Optimism can leave you feeling like you've been mugged. 

Maybe I can try on optimistic pessimism?

beginnings

The start of the 2010-2011 school year! 

Can you believe this is Dylan's last year of elementary?

Taylor is really growing up.